The most confusing person I have ever met.

 I am tired of shit happening and then not being told shit, like what did I even do this time? I understand what happened with Lexi, but Plague? I haven't done shit in months; I stopped expressing any sort of distaste of him a while ago! So, what the fuck did I do? Is it because we're siblings? If so, I can't help that I'm related to them! I'm so God damn tired of this shit, though honestly what was I expecting? I knew that one day this was probably going to happen, but Y'know I was really expecting an actual reason instead of this! I thought he would be better than Lexi, but I guess not! I just hope this doesn't affect me as bad. I really don't want to go through that again. This is why I'm so hesitant to even make friends in the first place! Though I do get the reasons why for them, but he was also pretty negative too! That's pretty much why he was treated like that! I genuinely do not think he can comprehend HIM doing wrong. I used to believe he actually changed a little, but the Teto Bing incident proved he hadn't. I really so badly want to finally just let it all out onto him in one of the gcs I'm in that he's still in it, But I'm not sure if I really should. I mean, the biggest reason I hadn't before was because he might have done what he just did now. Though since he did that there's not really anything stopping me is there? Unless I'm like really stupid or something but I'm pretty sure he has like a really fucking big ego, as that would explain why he does not fucking listen to me, bozo the clown, and shifty whenever we criticize anything that he does or says. I'm also pretty sure back in December he was trying to get shifty out of the friend group with how he was acting. Though I guess he stopped after realizing we weren't going to let him. Though maybe I'm just a fucking idiot and he really is just a perfect angel and that I'm the evil one. It has been hard not bringing shit up from months ago, cause all of that shit was so fucking stupid cause HE was the only one with problems and yet he acted like he was the only victim! I don't even understand why he did so many of these damn things! Like with Shifty, the gore was very tame compared to a lot of the shit out there, and even then, It's gore of FICTIONAL Characters. If it was real life gore then okay, but it wasn't. The other thing was his name. I'm sorry that you had a bad experience with someone else named Shifty years ago, but it is not our god damn problem. That's another thing I hated about him too! He would shit on so many things all because he had bad experiences with stuff years ago on discord! Like okay! we get it, but you don't have to just complain about it all to us! Just let us enjoy things! I also don't understand why he likes to really just make sure we know he doesn't like something that we like. Like recently it's been Fortnite. I'm not even sure why at this point it's just confusing, I highly doubt it's because he doesn't like the seasons. Pretty sure it's the AI. Which yes, AI is a bad thing, and they definitely shouldn't use it, it does not matter if he agreed to letting his voice be used, but I don't think that's a good enough reason to just hate on the game entirely and just constantly remind us that you hate the game! Now during my typing all of these I realized that it might have been what I said earlier, but honestly, I don't give a fuck. HE went after me with that so I'm going to say it back to him. If it really is like that then man, didn't think he was THAT pathetic. I think I'm done with this, it's hard to find anything else to talk about so goodbye for now.

Rambles about using OCs and stuff

I'm not sure what caused it but for a while now I have been really wanting to actually use my own characters for things, but I'm not sure what to do at all, and I just feel like no one would actually care. I see others have people get excited for their OCs and It just makes me wonder if I should bother. Though then again, I have barely actually shared much about my own OCs, other than the lore doc. Which I'm pretty sure no one is going to actually read the whole thing. It's not like it matters anyways It's really just explaining the plots of each game and not like actual full lore. There's also the Kirby Stories, but that kind of just feels like I'm just shoving them in it for the sake of having them be there. I also feel like a lot of my characters are just not that interesting. What I don't like is when everything is just about Parallel and Perpendicular, like other people exist! Not even my actual characters either! There are other people just like them! But of course, it's because I haven't really used them at all. I don't really know what to use them in though, the only thing was ParallelQuest but that's probably not going to happen. That requires so much that I just can't do. Another thing is that I feel like I've kind of ruined Ayashii. Now yes, she isn't really supposed to be all that likeable. I just feel like I made that just her whole personality. Which is not true, she isn't just rude all the time, she just never shows any other side of herself to anyone, not even Scarlet. That side of her is what's left of how she was before {REDACTED} was kicked out. Though, seeing as she abuses Ryoko there is no chance anyone would like her, which is understandable, I guess. I should probably work on some things for Kirby Stories Part 30. I also feel like I'm not using Matsuko right. Yeah, she's my own character and all but all I've really done with her is have her just get pissed constantly, which yeah, she does have anger issues, but I need to do more with her. I was going to do something with her for Part 28, but I could not for the life of me figure out how to make any of that over a thousand words. I might still do it though, I won't really feel like I'm restricted to making things somewhat long with Part 30 seeing as it'll be a bunch of chapters, like an actual Ao3 Story should be instead of what I did for the rest of the series. Honestly, I need to either use or make characters that people don't just fear for their lives when they show up. I mainly just don't want Parallel to only be the main character I use. Though, I do still have to use him for some things, things that should have happened a while ago but the R3D stuff made me delay it, not really by much though seeing as the other character was already introduced to the server so I can basically do it at any time. I guess Mana was kind of an attempt to have a normal character. She isn't an all-powerful god or anything, just a witch that likes to scam people purely for the fun of it, she has no use for money at all. It's just she has no real reason to leave her hut, so people would have to come to her. Though maybe someone has a plot that could fix that. I don't really have any plot ideas because, what's the point? I gave up on my one big plot idea a while ago, because there was no way in hell I was telling anyone about it, like fuck no I don't give a damn if it's your server I'm not telling you shit, and it was kind of spoiled, seeing as one of the big things with it was Cherry dying. Which multiple things were linked to her death, like Scarlet getting all of her powers (She willingly did this by the way, she also could have just gotten them back at any time), Yoshimi being created, and something to do with Kikyou (I forgot what exactly it was). I think the biggest issue is I have no idea how a lot of my characters would even work in the server, like why would they even be there? What would they even do? If they're one of the main characters, they would just stop anything that's happening. For example, the Cult of Chaos stuff would have been stopped almost immediately by Ava or even Arisu. Now Hikari, maybe. I think Seika would be able to deal with the ones invading but not actually stop it completely, and Seth and Lucy are just fucked. I really don't want to just make new characters for the sake of making new characters though. I want everyone to at least have a purpose, and to me making someone solely for the server isn't a good reason. I think that's really all I have to say right now. Goodbye, I'm not sure when the next one will be.

Insane Sand Lovers

I'm going to go crazy, Its sand everywhere! We don't need a desert biome here! We don't need one at all! You aren't going to get anything to spawn by just expanding it upwards! Do you even need that damn forbidden fragment? Like whom cares if it's ranged! Fuck ranged! Rogue is better! Like genuinely, look at this!

Like what in god's name is this madness! It's ruining the landscape! My beautiful, mowed grass is gone! How are we going to do anything with this massive chunk of sand on our doorstep! People were even kicked out of their own homes for this horrid creation! We have to figure out a way to stop this mad man from continuing!

What are we even supposed to do with the damn tower? We fight bosses here! (Even though some should NOT be fought near all the NPCs) I think we need to start a petition to remove sand lovers from this land! They do not deserve to be around us anymore!

Well thank you for your time. I hope I have enlightened you on the problem that are sand lovers. May we get rid of them with ease.

Meaningless rambles about life.

 Why did I make this? I kind of just wanted somewhere to just say whatever, now yes, I do have my own channel in Bingcord but I've never really felt like using a Discord channel to just say whatever. I'm not really sure as to why though, maybe because I feel like no one cares? I mean I feel like that for a lot of things. That's probably because almost everyone I know doesn't have the same interests as me, so why should I even bother talking about any of it? I do really wish it wasn't like this. I just wish I knew people that had the same interests, but talking to people I don't know is hard. Cause what if they don't like me? I've seen many people who clearly don't like me because I'm annoying. Won't other people be like that too? I've tried to change but I just can't, after acting like this for 8 years it's just hard to change. Though I will admit I have at least changed a little since then. I was definitely much worse back in 2018 though. I've said this before and I know it sounds strange but, I feel like a lot of this was because I watched Flamingo almost like religiously back then, like anything I would say or do was because of that. That's also where most of my humor came from. Now, I don't hate Albert because of this, this was entirely my fault. I really don't like mentioning any of that, because I feel like people will just make fun of me, or just not understand at all, but then again, I don't understand any of it either. Why am I like this? What even caused me to stop talking to people? Like, I want to talk to people, I really do, but I just can't bring myself to. I used to be able to talk to anyone on the internet, but after 2022 I haven't been able to. What if they just leave me and spread lies about me? All of these issues and I'm going to have to start my life soon. I'm not even sure what I'm going to do! I have no skills or talents; All I really like are video games. How am I supposed to make a living out of that? There's no way in hell I can be a youtuber, I gave that up long ago. So, what even is there anymore? What can I do with my life after wasting so much of it? All I have is to just wait and see what happens, maybe something will come that'll get me out of all of this. I feel like most people would think I would be suicidal after all of these issues, I'm not, I really do not want to die. Like what if something actually does happen? If I died, then I wouldn't be able to do anything! Plus, I wouldn't be able to play any Video Games! Related to not wanting to die, I really REALLY do not want to drive. The issue is I pretty much have to if I want to do anything in life. But what if something happens to me? I definitely could not remember every little thing I need to know to drive. I really feel like Driving would be how I die, I just don't see myself doing that without any problems. If anyone is reading at this point, why? Why are you still reading? None of this even matters to you, It's just problems with my life, not yours. Why should you really care about me? That's why I don't usually say anything like this outside of my mind, because who really cares? I think That's enough for now. I'm sorry you chose to waste your time reading all of this.

The Beginning

 The beginning of what? Im not sure, maybe the Ancient Among Us Tribe can teach us what this means. Though they haven’t been seen in a long time. Maybe they can be found within the multiverse! Just watch out for the Ancient Stumble Guys Tribe! They might send you to the Stumbleverse. I think that’s it for now. More may be in store if you wait long enough.

Until next time.