Meaningless rambles about life.

 Why did I make this? I kind of just wanted somewhere to just say whatever, now yes, I do have my own channel in Bingcord but I've never really felt like using a Discord channel to just say whatever. I'm not really sure as to why though, maybe because I feel like no one cares? I mean I feel like that for a lot of things. That's probably because almost everyone I know doesn't have the same interests as me, so why should I even bother talking about any of it? I do really wish it wasn't like this. I just wish I knew people that had the same interests, but talking to people I don't know is hard. Cause what if they don't like me? I've seen many people who clearly don't like me because I'm annoying. Won't other people be like that too? I've tried to change but I just can't, after acting like this for 8 years it's just hard to change. Though I will admit I have at least changed a little since then. I was definitely much worse back in 2018 though. I've said this before and I know it sounds strange but, I feel like a lot of this was because I watched Flamingo almost like religiously back then, like anything I would say or do was because of that. That's also where most of my humor came from. Now, I don't hate Albert because of this, this was entirely my fault. I really don't like mentioning any of that, because I feel like people will just make fun of me, or just not understand at all, but then again, I don't understand any of it either. Why am I like this? What even caused me to stop talking to people? Like, I want to talk to people, I really do, but I just can't bring myself to. I used to be able to talk to anyone on the internet, but after 2022 I haven't been able to. What if they just leave me and spread lies about me? All of these issues and I'm going to have to start my life soon. I'm not even sure what I'm going to do! I have no skills or talents; All I really like are video games. How am I supposed to make a living out of that? There's no way in hell I can be a youtuber, I gave that up long ago. So, what even is there anymore? What can I do with my life after wasting so much of it? All I have is to just wait and see what happens, maybe something will come that'll get me out of all of this. I feel like most people would think I would be suicidal after all of these issues, I'm not, I really do not want to die. Like what if something actually does happen? If I died, then I wouldn't be able to do anything! Plus, I wouldn't be able to play any Video Games! Related to not wanting to die, I really REALLY do not want to drive. The issue is I pretty much have to if I want to do anything in life. But what if something happens to me? I definitely could not remember every little thing I need to know to drive. I really feel like Driving would be how I die, I just don't see myself doing that without any problems. If anyone is reading at this point, why? Why are you still reading? None of this even matters to you, It's just problems with my life, not yours. Why should you really care about me? That's why I don't usually say anything like this outside of my mind, because who really cares? I think That's enough for now. I'm sorry you chose to waste your time reading all of this.